Eternal Sunshine

Not talking about it is not fair.

Hiding emotions behind the fear of losing them with their acknowledgement, feels like a lost opportunity to freeze time for whenever I want to visit.

So let me stamp nostalgia.

I’m happy now.

And not for the reasons I thought I would be.

Nothing is certain.

In fact things are more up in the air than they’ve been in a while.

But I feel myself moving.

For so long I noticed only distance between me and where I am going.

Stagnation.

But with minor tweaks to major blocks, I can sense the universe acknowledging my efforts.

Acknowledgement.

How could I be afraid of what is proving to carry me?

In real time I am realizing that taking time to see creates space for planning.

What feels like the best next move?

Capitalizing on the energy I’ve released.

A to do list forming in my mind for the purposes of coming true.

What will the story be?

That I’ll tell myself when now feels like something that prepared me and set the ground work.

I’ll never stop arriving until my final destination.

Perhaps acknowledging leads to truth and pass that is the happiness I’ve worked for.

Perhaps I’m reaching it.

Being sensuality, I’m reminded to feel.

So do I will.

Feeling what I need to until I’m sure.

See you then.